Tuesday, 24 December 2013

Sorry for radio silence

Well, the last couple of months went past in a blur.

What's new with me?

  • I HAVE A JOB!!! I work for the Post Office now. Talk about dream job for a pen paller <3
  • I have a bit of self confidence! I think this is linked with the above bullet point
  • I'm learning to love decluttering. Not that anyone would guess this by seeing my flat today.
  • I have a love for writing letters again. I fell a bit out of love with post in 2013
2013 was a weird old year. Thankfully there's only 1 week left. 2014 is looking set to be MUCH better

Monday, 2 September 2013

Self Indulgence

I've been feeling pretty down lately at times. Nothing that I can totally pin-point, but a pervading sense of "why even bother"...

Then I did holiday club with my church, and spent time with good friends and I'm feeling better. So while I'm in this better mood I'm posting a list of 5 reasons why I love myself (and need to remember this when I don't really love myself)

1. I am resilient.

I don't tend to give up, even when life gives me a massive case of "ughhhhh" anymore. I've taken some real crap in my life, and I haven't let it drown me.

2. I'm willing to try new things.

I started crochet-ing age 28, I tried matcha tea just because it was offered. I like to try new things.

3. I'm not sucking wholly at parenting.

Maybe some people don't agree with how I parent Abbie (I am pretty strict), but I've got a child who is a heck of a lot more respectful that others I know (and even while sulking at my witholding a treat due to her bad behaviour still thanked a bus driver as she got off the bus)

4.I make good cupcakes

Because yum, cake.

5. I am getting a tonne better at We Love Katamari

Because na naaaa na na na na-na na na na katamari damacy!!

Sunday, 25 August 2013

Bore Da Babies

So, 3 weeks ago Miss A and I went to Wales. We spent 2 nights in Cardiff, before catching a train up to Liverpool where we caught up with friends/compadres/partners in mischief and drove along the North Welsh Coast to Betws-Y-Coed and Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwrmdrobwllllantisiliogogogoch (apologies if I spelled that wrong, I'm going from memory RN)

 As soon as we arrived in Cardiff Abbie was absolutely thrilled. "LOOK MUM IT'S IN WELSH! TAKE A PICTURE OF ME WITH THE WELSH WRITING" (It says Shuttle bus to the airport every 20 minutes. Tickets £5)

Obligatory mummycuddle pictures :)

Beautiful signs at Caerdydd Canolog (Cardiff Central Station)

Won't translate this, as it's translated there by Abbie

 When we arrived in Cardiff we dumped our bags at the hotel (Ibis Budget Cardiff. It was brilliant. Very cheap, very good quality for the money we'd paid. Cheaper than the hostels we'd looked at!)

Then we caught the #6 Shuttle Bus to Cardiff Bay. Abbie was enraptured. We really enjoyed looking around the bay, especially as we recognised a lot of places from various telly programmes

 (including Doctor Who, Torchwood, a couple of Pobol Y Cwm on locatino episodes....)

The Millenium Centre is awe-inspiring. So beautiful. When we go back to Cardiff I fully intend to have more of a look around.

 We seemed to spend a lot of time playing around statues. Abbie loved this one near the station :)

 We also looked at a museum by the tourist information centre. When Abbie sat on that seal it made a noise and she nearly leapt off it in shock.

 On Thursday morning it was time to say HWYL FAWR CAERDYDD!! RYDYM GARU CHI!! (byebye cardiff, we love you).

As you may have noticed in this picture, my arm is in a sling. Wellll, en route to the train station to start our adventure, I shut my hand in a taxi door accidentally. (The wind blew it shut)... I fractured my right index finger, and had it taped up to the middle one, and up in a sling to avoid it being bashed about.

Other people bring home sticks of rock. Injuries are apparently my souvenir of choice!

 Betws Y Coed was lovely. We went on a little miniature train ride (and the actual train pulled up while we were at the station, which was fun)

 Driving to LlanfairPG the scenery was absolutely amazing. If anyone ever wants to give me a house in Snowdonia, please feel free!

This one if you're so inclined ;)

I wonder where we are in these above pictures??

And then it was time to say Hwyl Fawr Cymru! After this we went to St Helens, had EPIC takeaway (seriously the portion sizes were absurd!) chilled out, chatted, and then on Friday afternoon spent 7 hours going home to Sussex

Sunday, 21 July 2013

Rock Bottom

I definitely hit rock bottom earlier this month.

I'll let you into a little secret. I'm absolutely rubbish at housework,... I can just about maintain a clean house, but if something happens and it gets untidy I can't seem to claw myself back.. and it got more and more untidy and I just buried my head in the sand like a detritus-ostritch..

Thankfully I have friends who care enough to tell me and to help me, and honestly I've been so over-whelmed by the love. Things are making great strides forwards.

I also got in touch with my landlord who will be removing my (useless) water tank. They were supposed to be removed when the boilers were installed, but yet again, it didn't happen with my flat (I was also missing half my kitchen when I moved in).... but yes, 5 1/2 years later my case has been heard, and byebye water tank and HELLO STORAGE CUPBOARD. OH MY GOSH WHAT WILL I DO WITH THAT SPACE

I know fullwell what I'll do. It'll be the cupboard for the vacuum cleaner/ironing board/mop/brooms etc.. and shelved from waist high so I have somewhere to put bedding that isn't the bottom of my chest of drawers.

Hitting rock bottom and being honest has been so cathartic and exhausting though, I'm knackered and running 99% on caffeine lately.

Thursday, 11 July 2013


I love food, but I hate my lack of kitchen motivation lately.

What are your favourite things to cook?

Tuesday, 9 July 2013

That time I forgot I had a blog

Sorry, June was quiet wasn't it?

I'm 29 now. YAY I'm getting so old! I have les than a year of my 20s left and this thrills me. I don't worry about the numbers growing. I'm just that I'm around still.

This is just a quick one...

5 things I love right now.

1. Raspberry Syrup. I pick it up from a Polish store in Burgess Hill (West Sussex) and I add it to milk for milkshakes and to lemonade for a particularly sweet treat.

2. my friends... I was thoroughly spoilt rotten for my birthday. I have some lovely new purple nail varnish that I want to wear forever and ever amen.

3. Family. As always my Lewes lot (and the surrounding areas of course) have been amazing.

4. Coffee. I am a caffeine addict, and coffee keeps me nice.

5. Soap Operas... Pobol Y Cwm, River City, Goede Tijden Slechte Tijden, Hollyoaks. They are my guilty pleasures (just without the guilt)

Saturday, 8 June 2013

(not so) heureux demoiselle

Yesterday was pretty crummy for me.

I had my wallet stolen while I waited for a bus. I am so angry. Both at the thief for taking it, and also at myself for not being aware.

I'm so lucky to have the family I do. I rang my dad at work, crying my eyes out (My Dad always makes me feel safe, and of course, the second I heard his voice I was a wreck).. he immediately rang my brother, who drove over to collect me. My niece gave me a huge cuddle and told my eyes to stop dripping, which made me feel better.

I then also found out that my friend and I are supposedly bullying another mother at the school. I use the word supposedly, because neither of us are quite sure when we're supposed to have done this, as we never see this particular parent! We have spoken to the head teacher at the school, in the hope that this supposed "bullying" doesn't reach the childrens ears. We're both so bemused though.

But onto more positive stuff.

I've re-arranged my room, eaten lots of ramen, drunk my first root beer and my daughter gave me a new wallet.

Life is still good. Bad things happen, but they only become worse if you let them take over.

Thursday, 6 June 2013

Organiser (Je n'ai pas de compétences organisationnelles)

I feel like lately all I am doing is throwing stuff away. I have been such a hoarder since I was finally in a flat of my own. I'm pretty ashamed of it really.

So next week I'm dedicating the week days to sorting out the flat.

We have 5 rooms:

My room
A's room
Front Room

One room one day = 1 week until we're sorted.
I'm gonna start tomorrow by taking the (four) boxes of books to the charity shop. (Though there will be more books to come I'm sure!)

I need to buy a bedside cabinet tomorrow too, and move my chest of drawers and throw out the ugly tv stand in my room. I am dedicated to giving myself a lovely bedroom.

Small Injustices

Now the daughter is approaching 9 she's aware of a lot in the big wide world, as well as her own little bubble. She's aware life isn't fair and that sometimes bad things happen, and that the best thing is to have faith in a higher power, and to do the best you can to make your life fair.

She asked me something yesterday and I wasn't quite sure how to respond, so I'm throwing it out to the blogosphere in the hope one or two of you will give your opinions/suggestions.

There is a child in her class who has slight learning difficulties and a small mobility issue. Of course we understand that there are certain instances in which there will be a different rule for this child than for others, but in yesterday's PE lesson they were playing rounders... this girl was run out.... but was allowed to carry on playing... yet when A was run out.. she was out. I can see exactly why A was annoyed. How come it's different rules?

I didn't really know what to say. Because to my mind, if a team member is out in a game like that... then they're out, and it's one of the few instances I don't think an exception should be made.

But I want to present a response to A in a positive light.

Hmm.. what to say?

Sunday, 2 June 2013


So.. I had an interview on Friday gone, and I painted my nails I'm pretty impressed that after 3 day they're not chipped to hell and back. The nail polish is Bourjois "Vert Gothique". It's definitely the worlds worst kept secret that my favourite colour is green,  and I really like this shade.

Also, I kinda wanted to show off that I've managed to grow my nails.  I've always had a bad habit of biting my finger nails, so for them to actually come beyond the tips of my fingers is some small miracle (Even my thumb nail was long until an unfortunate incident with a car door!)

Also, marvel at my wonky middle fingers!


Thursday, 30 May 2013

Fresh Start

haha not a huge one... I cleared my Ipod and loaded everything again. It's all organised, I have playlists and it's been on for an hour now and i'm not compulsively skipping tracks.

I'm excited, I'm getting a new old table. New to me, it used to be my Grandparents, and it's my favourite piece of furniture ever ever ever. So yes, delighted.

Friday, 24 May 2013

Retro Friday

With a little bit of jiggery pokery, and a hell of a lot of breath holding and hoping I got my SNES working. 21 years after its release on our shores, it's still going strong. The only thing I've ever had to replace is the wire to the telly (using the scart one that originally came with my Gamecube... but it fits)

On the right is Abbie, on the left is her friend Suranne. They were both born in 2004.

They're playing Donkey Kong Country. Released in 1994. 

This game was older than they are now when they were BORN. Amazing huh?

Friday Five

Snufkin knows what he's talking about.

Kiki's Delivery Service - a film I never get bored of watching

I'm trying to do this


Evil laugh
This will never not be funny to me 

A day in the life of Mymmeli-Kissa

Monday, 20 May 2013

Mama Moments...

A didn't enjoy school today. Someone called her a baby because she was humming to herself while she worked, so now she has decided she's a baby. How silly of this other child. I also hum to help me concentrate. I'd love this child to tell me I'm a baby too.

Egg and chips for tea has certainly boosted her spirits, and we'll cuddle up and watch My Neighbour Totoro together, and then it'll be time for bed. Routine is good for us. So at 7.30 she'll go to bed, and at 8pm I'll turn off the lights and put a bedtime cd on. (not that the bedtime cds always encourage sleep. Last night I had to hold back the laughter when I walked into her bedroom to find her stood on the bed singing along with Elton John's "Are You Ready For Love?"

I had to laugh at her lyrical adjustment though.
"Am I ready? Am I ready for bed? No, I'm not, ohhhh yeahhhhhh"

It was a lovely moment, and she settled down within minutes. 

She really enjoyed Eurovision on Saturday. I refuse to feel guilty about loving Eurovision. It's cheesy, and a bit sad, but I absolutely love it. It opened my eyes to a couple of bands who I love now (Les Fatals Picards and The Ark)...

And I must say, that 2007 was a good Eurovision year. The Ukrainian entry will forever stick in my mind!

I had to laugh at the young'uns distaste of Bonnie Tyler though. Unfortunately our upstairs neighbour is WAY too fond of playing Total Eclipse of the Heart on repeat......


Saturday, 18 May 2013

By virtue of being the only person to enter the lovely Hannah of What Hannah Read read the giveaway.

Congratulations Hannah, if you can let me know what colours you'd like in the hairband then I'll get my crochet on.

Je suis une araignée.

I am not infact a spider. Je deteste l'araignée! I am brushing up on my French and German using Duolingo. I'm quite ashamed by how much French especially I don't remember. I spent 7 years learning, then 12 forgetting it all again. Merde.

But Duolingo is good fun. Some of the sentences are weird, but that is helping it stick in my tête a bit better.

I gave my N64 and my SNES a dusting down and a play today. Both work.. well as far as I'm aware. The SNES controller appears to have died. I ordered a cheap one on ebay, so I'm hoping it IS the controller, and not the...controller attachey part within the SNES. It turned on and booted up Donkey Kong anyway.

Friday, 17 May 2013

Creature Comforts


Now, isn't this just the dictionary definition of Creature Comforts?

Mymble begrudgingly turned round to face me for this photo before curling back round on her nest of cushions. What you can't see is the CAT BED right behind my sofa.

Liebster Award


So, the lovely Hannah of What Hannah Read nominated me for the Liebster award. It's all very flattering, but confusing. There seems to be a lot of rigmarole around it. I'm fairly confident the internet police aren't going to be banging on my door if I don't do everything so... nyer basically.

This is what you're supposed to do:
1. Thank the Liebster Blog presenter who nominated you and link back to their blog.
2. Post 11 facts about yourself, answer the 11 questions you were asked and create 11 questions for your nominees.
3. Nominate 11 blogs who you feel deserve to be noticed and leave a comment on their blog letting them know they have been chosen.
 4. Display the Liebster Award logo
 5.  No tag backs

So. 11 facts about me.

1. I have 4 scars on my left hand. one on my index finger knuckle because I missed the tile I was scraping in art, and tore a chunk out of my knuckle instead. At least it's an L shape on my left hand huh? There is a tiny little scar on the very bottom of my middle finger on my left hand. A sewing accident where I stabbed my hand. A long scar on my wrist that I did climbing over the barbed wire fence by my house, and a little line on the back of my hand that I have no idea how I did it.

2. I'm the eldest of 5 children. There is 19 years and 8 and a half months between my youngest sibling and myself, and there is only 9 and a half months between that sibling and my offpsring.

3. I'm a mother, and I have been since 8,01pm on 14th December 2004. My little girl isn't so little anymore. She's 8 and a half, and she's very tall (4'9/4'10)

4. I love languages. I have a little knowledge of French and German (I managed to pass GCSE's in both, but I don't know how), and I've decided to take up Welsh and Dutch to add to the mix.

5. In the last 10 years I've moved in a big circle from East Sussex to Hampshire to the top of West Sussex and back to where I started in East Sussex all over again.

6. I drink coffee like it's going out of fashion.

7. Thinking of 11 things about me is hard work.

8. I've been penpalling since I was 14. I have a good number of those letters still. Some got lost in housemoves, a few burnt in a house fire but I've still got a large storage box of letters

9. Without the NHS I've had been dead over 25 years by now.

10. Or if my accident a a toddler hadn't have killed me, the terrible labour I went through with my daughter would have killed the pair of us. I'm so ashamed that the Government are systematically screwing the NHS about.

11. I try to see the good in people. But it can be hard sometimes


To answer Hannah's questions:

1. Describe, or share a picture of, the view from your kitchen window.

The view from my kitchen window is quite a boring one. I can see the flats opposite me, and the gardens of the maisonettes between us.

2. Do you like board games and if so which ones?

I loooooooooooooooove board games. Scrabble, Cluedo, Monopoly, Twister, Atmosfear, jigsaws. THey're all awesome.

3. When you were growing up, what kind of vehicle did you imagine you would drive when you got your license?

I have always wanted a split screen Morris 1000 (pref in black, navy blue or british racing green - not that i'm specific ... much)... however at 29 I still don't have my license.

4. What do most people do that you don’t?

To be honest, I don't really pay a lot of attention to other people, but I guess smoke/drink/use drugs.

5. What assumptions do others often make about you and are these correct?

This is another one I find it hard to answer. Because I don't really care about what others assume about me I don't really pay attention to the assumptions.

6. Share a link to a song you’ve been listening to lately.

Christophe - Aline. (Because I'm secretly a middle aged belgian housewife at heart)

7. What were your favourite toys when you were a child?

Always my teddybear. and Books.

8. What is the hardest thing you’ve ever done?

Been a single parent. It's really not what I expected in life, but honestly it's the best thing that could have happened to both me and Bee.

9. Do you organise your books and if so, in what order?


10. What was your first computer like?

11. What are you going to do after writing this post?

Coffee. Naturally.


I honestly can't think of 11 questions for other people right now. If you want to do questions, leave a comment, and I'll ask you 5. or however many I can come up with.

Les joies de jeudi

Whimsical post time.
5 things I love:

1. Elderflower cordial with sparkling water.

It's my absolute favourite go-to drink on a warm evening. As many ( or some.. or possibly at least one person) may know, I'm tee-total. I haven't had issue with alcohol (beyond the price and taste anyway), but in the last 10 years I've been tee-total more than I haven't. It's currently 12 weeks since I had a drink, and I've consciously decided in my head that this is it for good.

2. Post

 Pen palling has been a massive part of my life since I was 14. I'm 29 in 5 weeks, so more than half my life has been spent queueing in the post office (and believe me, since 2 of the post offices went in this town it *REALLY* feels like half my life!) There's a certain delight to opening up and envelope that I know doesn't contain a demand for money I've met some of my best friends through letters (even if we've never met phyiscally) and despite debating quitting pen-palling a couple of times I honestly can't imagine my life without!

3. This love song.
Epik High - Don't Hate Me

It's catchy, it's not soppy, they look like they're having an absolute damn blast performing it live. The M/V is brilliant.

Here's the English translation of the Korean lyrics.
The lead singer wrote this for his wife. I like it a lot more than some stereotypically gushing love songs you hear a lot on the radio.

4. cwtsh!

Cuddles are officially THE best thing ever in my book. Whether they're with kids or kitties or friends. Ich <3 Hugs

5. Coffee....

Seriously. I'm really not worth knowing without this stuff in my system!!

Tuesday, 14 May 2013

Dear Body of Mine

I don't think we can be friends at the moment. Just because I ate my lunch a little fast, I think giving it back quite as fast was incredibly mean, and head? Yes, I know there is a storm on the way, you don't need to throb like a throbby thing to make me aware.

here endeth the whinge.

Today is May 14th, exactly 7 months until Miss A turns 9. What a terrifying thought. I don't feel old enough to have a 9 year old child.

She's off to the local youth club this afternoon, where she'll have tv and play in the park et cetera, and I'll probably do the terribly glamourous thing of "housework". I have some mildew-y crap on my washing machine rubber rim, and I'm gonna do a hot wash with some soda crystals in the hope it effs off.

Saturday, 11 May 2013

Giveaway time.

So, I just hit 900 page views. I can't quite believe it that people have come to look so often. It is pretty cool.

I'm gonna do a little giveaway for 1000 views.

As you know, I crochet, and I knit. If you'd like a handmade headband, then comment here, and as soon as I hit 1000 views I'll pull a number out of the cat.. I mean hat. And bam, heandbands r us!

The Rantling

I'm pretty sure that anyone reading this knows full well that I am a mother.. If not, I am! I have an 8 and a half year old daughter, who is pretty freaking brilliant.

Of course, she's not always been an 8 and a half year old. It doesn't feel all too long since she was an 8 and a half month old, let along an 8 and a half day old. Life is much easier now she's articulate, and she can say "I'm hungry/tired/bored/in the mood to make noise for the fun of it" rather than being a baby whose "wahhhhhh" could mean any of the above, or more.

I was on the bus last week to see the fabulous Kei who blogs over at Unfortunately Oh, with the wee one who had a day off school due to ridiculous rules regarding vomit. (TL;DR - 48 hours away if you puke in case it's contagious... Buffet Table Lunch and Bouncy Castle fun = vomit that isn't contagious whatsoever), and there was a mother on the bus with a little baby, I'd guesstimate between 4 and 8 months old? She wasn't in a good mood (the baby, though the mother wasn't too chipper at the beginning of this tale either), and was having a bit of a whinge. Not a full on screaming meltdown, but enough of a whimpery whinge that I could hear it sat 2 rows behind them.

Unfortunately for this poor woman, there was an elderly couple next to her, who were complaining about how noisy the baby was, and how in their day children were seen and not heard (which my Grandmother has reliably informed me is Grade A horse shit. Babies have always cried).. Their moaning though, was infinitely more annoying than the noise of the child.

So when we were coming up the road to my bus stop, I crouched down to the little girl and said "oh sweetie, I felt just the same when I woke up this morning, i hope you're feeling better this afternoon" and smiled at the mum and raaaaather loudly told her "Every baby has done the same, and anyone moaning has probably forgotten what it was like to be young, and should really shut up".. Cue "how rude!" and general tuttery from the elderly couple.

It's been a long time since I was a baby (29 years infact, as of next month), but I imagine it must be frustrating. They're unable to vocalise anything beyond a cry, and us pesky adults aren't always able to interpret that wahh correctly the first (or even first 3) times...

I'm not saying that the whinging of the baby was the most melodic, enjoyable sound in the world, but it's a fact of life, and I've heard grown humans make more annoying sounds. If you use public transport then occasionally there will be a tired and cranky baby, a stressed out toddler, a grumpy child whose had a long week at school... but you deal with it. A bus journey doesn't last forever (even if it feels like it sometimes), if you want to travel with a guarantee of no noise from other members of the public (whether they're 6 months or 60 years) then learn to drive, and travel alone.

I'm not saying everyone has to love every child ever, but that crying baby will more than likely be accompanied by a frustrated mother, who already feels bad enough about her crying child, and she won't need snotty comments from some miserable sod.

Saturday, 4 May 2013

Je n'ai gardé que ce doux visage Comme une épave sur le sable mouillé

Day 4 sans landline.

Kinda wishing I'd checked that it wasn't something external before purchasing a new phone. It was something external, however I now have a spare handset for when mine invariably goes breasts ascending!
I'm quite reliant on a landline. It's how I keep in touch with my father and Grandparents, and to be without one for 4 days now has been frustrating.

Though it took me 2 days to work out it wasn't working. I thought I was unpopular!! Heh, nope, external forces disapprove of my conversation though.

It's May Bank Holiday weekend. Thanks to a particularly delicate stomach I've not ventured out (I don't dare be too far from a bathroom, and I'll be nice and leave the information at that!), Abbie watched The Princess and The Frog earlier while I tried to nap away my feelings of ill. We've had a small lunch (pasta bake for Abbie, Salad for me) and as there's no school tomorrow, we're going to cuddle up and watch The Princess Bride next. There's nothing like comfort cinema when you're feeling grim!

Monday, 29 April 2013

It might come as a suprise to ... no-one... but I love musicals.

So today it's musicals monday.
What are YOUR favourite musicals?
(if you like them of course, I'm aware they're not everyone's cup of tea)

Sunday, 28 April 2013


What makes you feel good?

It's 9am on Sunday morning, I'm up, washed, dressed and breakfasted (2 coffees and a banana, it's a balanced diet if I'd had a cup in each hand!) and we'll be leaving for church in... 90 minutes.

I looked in the mirror as I came out of the bathroom and I liked what I saw. It's not dressed up. Just a regular pair of blue jeans, a blouse/t-shirt all in one thingy, and a basic black fleece jacket. But I feel comfortable and it's given me some joy this morning.

Abbie of course is still in her pajamas. I forsee her scrambling around in an hour for her clothes, but such is the life of an 8 year old. I refuse to spoon feed her through life, she's not a baby anymore, and she's more than old enough to dress herself and learn a little time management.

Talking of time management, once her homework is done tonight we're going to work on a new routine/schedule. We seem to fall ot of sorts way too easily, so I'm going to print something out and have it in a frame in the hallway so neither of us can argue.

I'm just trying to live in a happy cohesive household that is ours and us. It seems to be workng so far, I just need to get a handle on the housework. (that's this weeks challenge)

Saturday, 27 April 2013

Pardon me boy, is that the Chattanooga ChooChoo?

I'm blatantly not in Tennessee, however much I'd like to be. The music player kicked up the Andrews sisters version of this, and I'm back to my 18 year old self using song lyrics for blog posts (or lj entries as they were back in the day for me!)

It's a lovely morning, chilly but not cold, sunny and just generally NICE. Abbie and I were out of the house at 8.50am to get to the post office. My pen-pals have been amazing to put up with my general rubbishness. But post went out today!

After that, as promised to Abbie if she behaved, we got a drink at Caffe Nero, then headed into the charity shop... Oopsie, I accidentally spent £3 on boardgames. I got Battleships, Guess Who and "Coppit". I look forward to playing them!

I am managing to keep my stress levels under control more now. I don't know what happened to me the last month or so, it felt like EVERYTHING was going to send me slightly bonkers.

Wednesday, 24 April 2013

Navel Gazing Number 5928404034843

I wish I could get a handle on my ridiculous fluctuating self-esteem. I know no-one has good self-esteem constantly, but y'know, I'd like something a little different from the rapid cycle between self-loathing, and thinking the sun shines out my own arse. I'm well well well aware neither is the actual case. I'm not that bad, I'm not brilliant either, but I just wanna plod along ok.

Things are getting better with A. Her behaviour is improving, she's actually gone to bed when asked, she has a cd on and I expect she'll be asleep before long (then I can catch up on the Gwaith/Cartref and River City I recorded earlier in the week).. She's still having some problems socialising, though I think part of that is the people she is around. Abbie's a fairly quiet child, definitely intelligent (she's picking up 3 languages off her own back), loves a good book and has a really expansive imagination, and doesn't really have much of an interest in pushing a doll around in a small pram, which seems to be the preferred thing of a lot of the children the same age as her around here.

She went to the local youth club, and was excluded from joining in with one group, and came home crying. I can understand her frustration, as she does try to mix, and when it doesn't work she gets frustrated and gives up. I've told her not to give up, next time she can always bring along something to play of her own, or just try and play with children different to the ones she was already playing with. In September she's re-starting at a new brownie pack, and will also be starting the Youth Club run by the church we attend.

I'm slowly slowly getting the flat together, I still need to finish filling in 1 corner of the lounge with paint, and  I need to lay the lino I was kindly given in the kitchen. Then it's on to the bedrooms. For the places we'll often spend the largest amount of time we don't seem to have made much of an effort with them.

On a total other note, but quite amusing.. My Nan found the designs my ex had done for my wedding dress and the bridesmaids dress. Ughhhhhh lucky escape!!!

Saturday, 20 April 2013

Bist Du Da? Wo Ich Auch Bin...

So, this is my round up for the week.

I've been curating the People of UK twitter this week, It's been been lovely to get to speak to new people.

I have been re-arranging furniture in the bedrooms. I'm doing better than I expected on this front, and am INCREDIBLY excited about the new dressing table I'm getting next week :D

Decluttering is driving my hoarding little mind mad, but I'm persevering. I'm treating myself. For each hour that I clean I each a nice mug of coffee, and after 3 hours I sit and watch a DVD. I'm about to go and start my first DVD (Reine Geschmacksache)

I hope everyone else's saturday is being super.

Friday, 12 April 2013

Freitag Fünf

1. Silly Kitties.
My Mymble is special levels of silly, and i'd run out of space on my camera if I recorded every little silly thing she does. Her current favourite is to come running up the hall, and then skid and smack her ass into the front door before kicking off and running back down the hall. Mind your ankles ladies and gentlemen.

2. Caffeine.
I possibly have caffeine dependancy issues. While I waited for the kettle to boil yesterday morning I had a Red Bull. then had rocket fuel coffee. I had 7 cups of coffee over the day, a necessity with the epic levels of stupidity yesterday contained. Cancelled plans all over the shop. A girl could get paranoid!!

3. This song/MV
I love this song, and the video is fantastic!

4. The Ultimate Duckface
quackers huh?

5. This cute as anything cartoon.

We first discovered Pocoyo about 6 years ago, when the wee one was a Toddler, and despite the fact she's 18 months away from turning 10, we'll still watch it of an evening. It's such a sweet lovely little cartoon it's the perfect thing to wind down to.